Papi, not having a job is getting me down
I don’t know if this will help, but I got my dream job right out of college, and it was horrible. I was undervalued, bullied, blamed for other people’s mistakes, and honestly almost left the field permanently due to it. What looks great on paper isn’t always great in reality. This creates a weird disconnect between internal goals/others’ perception/actuality. I was taught to build my identity on work achievement and realizing no matter how hard you work it sometimes gets you nowhere did make me realize that it has to be for ME. So the question is what makes me feel good/valued/engaged, and sometimes that’s really different from what looks good on paper. And sometimes it’s also something from my personal life that is entirely separate from my paying job, and that’s a lesson I’m still learning....
Network, network, network.
Meet up is a possible opportunity to network with similar background jobs, Linked-In ( not the best), and word of mouth. Meet potential networking folks through coffee, etc.
Don't compare your talents to others. Job hunting sucks!! It sucks at any age just don't give up. And when you find a job, keep searching for other jobs. You will look forward to sitting at a job that you like enough. When the phone call or email comes in that says, "Are you still interested in this position..." and you will have the opportunity to say, "Yes, no thanks or tell me more about the job". That's when you know you made it.
Stick it out baby!! As Bette Davis said, "Buckle up, it's gonna be a bumpy road".
Your job is "what you do". Your passion, interests, capabilities and your love for others and yourself is "who you are". Who you are is not what you do. One day when you can no longer work, you will still be who you are, so make that person happy.
I think that queer people are often taught to beat the best little people in the world - that grabbing the brass ring, getting the degree or award or promotion will make us acceptable somehow to the larger culture. We’re told to work harder and harder and harder. Try to give yourself breaks and see what you’re really striving for.
My sense is that the poster will get a great job in time! Rooting for you.