i love this. your graph paper reminds me of the concept from "the OA" of people being in your constellation. i always tell people, "it works until it doesn't" and on a practical level, that's just what it is.
I met my Thomas in college. She was blonde, tall and gorgeous. We began dating and soon fell in love. We made love all over campus in descreet fashion of course. Soon, I was off to the real world and she still had 2 years to go. 9 months after I left, I was so lonely and desperate that I asked her to marry. Of course, she said yes and we were due to be married shortly after her graduation. 5 months later I was in San Diego with some friends and we went to a few parties. I met several other ladies and soon realized I was having feelings for them. It was right around Valentine's Day that I realized I was too young, immature and broke to marry her. Also, she had never been out in the real world as she had lived with her parents during uni. I am sure that after we married, I would have been chasing skirts left and right. I broke off our engagement and broke her heart and mine as well. I believe I saved her alot of pain and suffering in the end. However, I still think she is the one that got away. Had we met 10 years later, it might have worked. You are right Papi, she left a huge dent in my life and I still think about her and our amazing times together. The good news is I learned alot and still ended up meeting a woman who has brought much joy and happiness to my life and a wonderful son who is doing well at 25. In the end, I don't know if she was my soulmate but boy did we have one hell of a connection.
i love this. your graph paper reminds me of the concept from "the OA" of people being in your constellation. i always tell people, "it works until it doesn't" and on a practical level, that's just what it is.
Honestly, this is a little push, helping me recover from my rose-colored relationships ❣️
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ty for the tears
My Thomas and I just broke up and this post killed me, in a good way.
I met my Thomas in college. She was blonde, tall and gorgeous. We began dating and soon fell in love. We made love all over campus in descreet fashion of course. Soon, I was off to the real world and she still had 2 years to go. 9 months after I left, I was so lonely and desperate that I asked her to marry. Of course, she said yes and we were due to be married shortly after her graduation. 5 months later I was in San Diego with some friends and we went to a few parties. I met several other ladies and soon realized I was having feelings for them. It was right around Valentine's Day that I realized I was too young, immature and broke to marry her. Also, she had never been out in the real world as she had lived with her parents during uni. I am sure that after we married, I would have been chasing skirts left and right. I broke off our engagement and broke her heart and mine as well. I believe I saved her alot of pain and suffering in the end. However, I still think she is the one that got away. Had we met 10 years later, it might have worked. You are right Papi, she left a huge dent in my life and I still think about her and our amazing times together. The good news is I learned alot and still ended up meeting a woman who has brought much joy and happiness to my life and a wonderful son who is doing well at 25. In the end, I don't know if she was my soulmate but boy did we have one hell of a connection.
This is gorgeous and sad and real and I can't stop thinking about it. TY <3